Hello, my name is Adam Pinkelman and I will be attending Saint John Vianney Seminary in St. Paul, Minnesota. Growing up I lived in the small, modest village in northeastern Nebraska called Bow Valley, and my home parish is Holy Family Parish of Cedar County Nebraska. The start of my vocational discernment is a little nebulous, and for the most part escapes me; however in the present God has and is continuously reassuring me that this, Seminary and ultimately the Priesthood, is in fact the mold which He designed for me.
The very thing that I hold accountable for my desire and admiration of the possibility of becoming a priest is the Sacrament of Reconciliation. In my early teen years I became more and more aware of just how sinful I truly was – and yes still am. Regardless of this newly found brokenness, I did not want to stay in the stagnant lifeless water that is sin itself; rather I went looking for something or someone that I can truly call upon in my many times of tribulation. Like most people, the Sacrament of Reconciliation scared me more than anything; soon, though, I learned to trust the man who sat in the little room in the place of Jesus with all of the “disgustingness” that had built up on my soul. The forgiveness and peace of the sacrament reigned supreme and even more powerful than the guilt, which sometimes had enveloped my very heart. It was then that talked to my priest about his vocation and his discernment, and the answer came to me: that I am indeed called to be a priest and servant of The Holy Trinity. I began to delve deeper and deeper into this Faith, and I began to try to better attune myself to the voice of God.
And so I can finally begin my travels with Christ this fall at SJV. I am completely enthralled by and excited for the brotherhood that comes with Seminarian life, and I know that I will grow in my Faith and deepen in prayer. I know that I am in for quite a long, and sometimes tedious, journey; but I can say with the utmost certainty that at last I am home; at last I have found peace!
Keep in mind that I know nothing about the true workings of God and how His plan for the lot of us will unfold; however I do know this: If you are being absolutely truthful with yourself and God, keeping nothing under the shadow of fear and lying, you will have the power to listen with open ears and an open mind; and truly that is all we need! We should not distract ourselves with illusions of grandeur because I dare say we will not do great things in the beginning of our journey. All we have to do is listen.